Afraid

[glenatron]

Back to the fracture clinic tomorrow. I expect them to say I need surgery for this break. I'm terrified of going under the knife, terrified of going under General Anaesthetic, but everything people have said suggests this is what needs to be done. Its not really a rational fear, except that these things, even when routine, are not entirely safe, but really I know it is my inner control freak combining with my fear of the unknown and terror of death. This will not be easy for me mentally. Not at all. I am not brave.

I guess I just need to man the hell up and deal with it. Wish it was that easy.

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[spirithorse21.livejournal.com]

It is scary and a touch decision based on the fact that many people do fine with the plate. However, I can tell you that taking the easier route does not always yield good long-term results. When the muscle in my back was torn completely off the shoulder blade, I should have had surgery. I did not. Now my shoulders are permanently uneven and cause me pain on a nearly daily basis. No amount of therapy or chiro work can make it 100%, only make it tolerable.

Still, it's a hard decision. *hugs*