Afraid

[glenatron]

Back to the fracture clinic tomorrow. I expect them to say I need surgery for this break. I'm terrified of going under the knife, terrified of going under General Anaesthetic, but everything people have said suggests this is what needs to be done. Its not really a rational fear, except that these things, even when routine, are not entirely safe, but really I know it is my inner control freak combining with my fear of the unknown and terror of death. This will not be easy for me mentally. Not at all. I am not brave.

I guess I just need to man the hell up and deal with it. Wish it was that easy.

Comments

[buymeaclue.livejournal.com]

Surgery is scary, and it does carry risks, and it's hard to be impartial about stuff like that when it's someone you love or, y'know, _you_ going under the knife.

But it is a good thing to be able to regain what range of motion one can. And so.

[glenatron.livejournal.com]

Also: Being a cyborg.