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Sometimes, when I'm feeling particularly tired and melancholy I listen to the song Bold Riley, which reminds me of the Halfpenny folk club and happy days.
It doesn't help, except that it gives the sadness a richness and a flavour of dark winter and friends who I see too little and miss too much. Work is weighing heavily on me right now and although I know that thirty is just a number I can feel it's looming presence at my shoulder and I am afraid of the judgement it will cast on my life and my achievements, or the judgement I will cast on my own life and achievements when I reach that milestone. There are yoghurts in the fridge that will outlast my twenties.
It doesn't help, except that it gives the sadness a richness and a flavour of dark winter and friends who I see too little and miss too much. Work is weighing heavily on me right now and although I know that thirty is just a number I can feel it's looming presence at my shoulder and I am afraid of the judgement it will cast on my life and my achievements, or the judgement I will cast on my own life and achievements when I reach that milestone. There are yoghurts in the fridge that will outlast my twenties.
